At first, I thought about contacting Kanchona.
Since I'm a man too, I figured Kanchona might be more comfortable to talk to than Celesti, who's a woman.
But when I actually tried to make the call, several thoughts held me back.
First of all, his face just rubs me the wrong way.
And I thought it might be better for Kanchona if I didn't contact him.
Appearing on Kanchona's stream earlier was fine since I was the main attraction.
But now Kanchona is probably doing his personal stream, and me contacting him after the broadcast ends?
Someone might think I have ulterior motives.
Honestly, I wouldn't care if it only affected me.
It's not my business if other people misunderstand or make assumptions.
But even though I appeared on his stream for mutual benefit, I still received help from him.
If I cause trouble for someone who helped me, that's something I couldn't bear.
A girl who extorts 100,000 won and becomes a nuisance?
That's the perfect image for being called a gold digger.
Wasn't that comment in the chat too, asking if I'd "given it" to Kanchona?
I may not have sexual experience, but I know what that means.
Of course it's disgusting.
They're basically asking if I slept with a man.
I don't particularly hate men, but as someone who was originally male, the idea of being with a man is mentally challenging.
...And because of my father, I tend to freeze up when men get too close.
Whether Kanchona noticed this or was just worried about potential rumors,
during the explanation stream earlier, he kept his distance from me, which didn't affect our gameplay.
Anyway, even in this body, I'll never look at men in a sexual way.
If I were to date anyone, it might be a woman, but what woman in the world would like me?
...With that thought, I unconsciously glanced back at the woman behind me.
She seemed to be waiting for me to contact someone, sitting on the bed and cutely swinging her feet.
I hesitated to look at her face, but even with my downcast eyes, I could see the lower half of her face.
Her lips formed a pleasant curve.
Though thin, her vibrant lips parted slightly, as if noticing I was looking at her.
"Yes, Noel? What is it?"
"Oh, nothing. I was just wondering who I should contact."
"Hmm, if you have to choose between Kanchona and Celesti, I vote for Celesti. She's a woman like you, after all."
"I suppose you're right."
Yes, let's not cross any lines and ruin this relationship.
I'm grateful for her help as a woman, and I might feel some affection because of that.
If I were some Casanova, I might try to advance even that kind of relationship.
But my previous self was a lifelong single with zero experience dating women, and my current self is just an unremarkable girl.
So I quietly contacted Celesti.
Honestly, I was hesitant about contacting a woman directly, but it would probably be more natural for her.
- Yoon Noel: Hey
- Yoon Noel: How do you receive anonymous gifts while streaming?
- Celesti: Huh?
- Celesti: Oh, are you going to give me a gift? It's okay lol I'll just accept your good intentions
- Celesti: You absolutely shouldn't give me anything. I'll refund any donations
So I contacted her, but somehow she misunderstood what I meant and got excited over nothing.
...Maybe she thought I was going to give her a gift because she helped me.
Now that I think about it, maybe I should show some appreciation.
But she did say not to give her anything.
I guess I can move on without feeling guilty.
- Yoon Noel: Well that's that
- Yoon Noel: There were a lot of people who made promises if I wasn't cheating
- Yoon Noel: I want to collect on those
- Celesti: Oh
After I explained further,
Celesti left a single, meaningless dying gasp in the chat and didn't respond for a while.
...Is she busy?
Come to think of it, she also said she streams.
I didn't watch much because I was focused on my game, but I remember viewers saying Celesti was quite famous.
Maybe I messaged her while she was streaming.
Fortunately, Celesti's silence didn't last long.
- Celesti: For that, you should probably post on the League of Champions community
- Celesti: First, for verification, take a screenshot in-game showing your ID and the date, then firmly tell those who made promises to keep them
- Celesti: I honestly wondered how many people would actually keep their promises... but your broadcast seems to have been quite effective
- Celesti: People are asking to contact you to make sure the promises are kept lol
Indeed, that was surprising to me too.
It seemed too professional to just be people wanting to see others suffer by enforcing promises.
Maybe those who want to keep their promises don't want their personal information exposed.
But if I had to find the biggest reason:
- Yoon Noel: I think it's because I'm disabled
- Celesti: Come on, they're just keeping promises, calling them disabled is lol
- Yoon Noel: I mean me
- Celesti: Oh
It's probably because I'm in a socially vulnerable position.
Well, everyone knows insulting others is generally wrong.
When directed at an innocent person, it becomes worse, and if that innocent person is a woman or child, you're asking for trouble.
I just added the disability factor on top of that.
Who would have thought I'd benefit from having a physical impairment?
It's not particularly welcome. If my body had been normal in the first place, I wouldn't be in this situation.
But Celesti seemed to misunderstand my comment as a joke and froze up again.
This time I lightened the mood from my side.
Fortunately, she hadn't completely lost her mind, as her reply came promptly.
- Yoon Noel: So after posting, how do I receive the items?
- Celesti: Usually through gift certificates? You can order deliveries with them too
- Yoon Noel: Ah
I see. Gift certificates.
I remembered friends exchanging small gifts that way in college.
I was taught that sincerity should be expressed in person, so I knew what they were but never used them.
...Ironically, the parents who taught me that abandoned me in an instant.
- Yoon Noel: Thanks
- Celesti: After posting, you should share an open KokoaTalk link
- Celesti: But this can be risky too... people might come not just to fulfill promises but to cause trouble
- Celesti: Never click any links, and set your settings so images don't load automatically
- Yoon Noel: I've heard a lot about voice phishing scams so I know. Don't worry
Judging by her detailed advice, it was likely based on personal experience.
Being a woman, Celesti probably attracted more malicious people.
You know how it is.
When a man opens an open KokoaTalk, nobody comes, but when a woman does it, people flood in.
So I need to be prepared too.
I'll set my KokoaTalk chat settings so images don't load immediately.
As for links, I won't click them anyway.
Gift certificates don't require clicking links; you just copy and enter the code.
Now all that's left is to post on the League of Champions community.
I've been lurking there, so I roughly know the culture.
It's basically League of Champions chat without any game content.
Since I didn't have an account, I registered and logged in to write a post.
As Celesti suggested, I launched League of Champions and took a screenshot showing my profile with a clock program displaying the date and time.
Knowing how easily photos can be manipulated, I even wrote my name on the screenshot to make font editing difficult.
[Hello, I'm Noel.] - Noel-farmer
(photo)
This is Noel who proved today I wasn't cheating.
Honestly, I don't understand why people suspected me of cheating, even after seeing the evidence.
But I guess you all thought it wasn't normal gameplay, so you were suspicious.
Even if I don't understand the evidence, as a gamer myself, I would be angry if someone unfairly won using cheats, so I understand that.
But I'm human too, and being falsely accused hurts my feelings.
I see many of you made promises about what you'd do if I wasn't cheating.
If you could share some food with me, it would make me feel better...
That's how I drafted it.
But it feels too bland.
Is it appropriate to write so politely on the League of Champions community?
After all, this is a game where people freely curse at each other in-game until they get chat-banned.
Being so polite on the community might actually seem stranger.
So I revised it.
Into something more befitting a confident top laner.
[Hand it over] - Noel-farmer
(photo)
The meat, hamburgers, and pizza you promised in your vows - "HAND THEM OVER"