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072: A Deceitful Heart

Noel << Come out, you who called me a water rocket bubble lol] - NoelStaffBreaker

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13/0/7 Mid Aatrox

What headbutting dinosaur lol He's just sweeping across the map by himself

This guy was just held back by top lane

Once he got free, he just smells kills and roams everywhere lol

Looks like he'll climb to Grandmaster soon lol

- BoredEarthworm: Did you switch lanes to play mid Aatrox?

ㄴ NoelStaffBreaker: No, when I first picked Aatrox, they immediately picked Irelia so Malphite swapped with me

ㄴ BoredEarthworm: ;; So you just ran away from a counter pick and got lucky one game?

ㄴ NoelStaffBreaker: Irelia followed me down but I killed her and that was the big deal lol

ㄴ BoredEarthworm: ? Stop talking nonsense lol How can Aatrox kill Irelia

ㄴ NoelStaffBreaker: I don't know either, he just did it

- EnlistmentD54: But honestly, isn't this biased? Hmm... seems like he just mindlessly started fights everywhere...

ㄴ TearRip: If you're still calling this a headbutting dinosaur, I have nothing to say lol Should he just avoid all fights and only farm CS? Just suck his thumb during objective fights?

- LettuceSlayer: I could do this too lol Who can't farm well and stomp noobs?

ㄴ undertable: Ever consider that getting fed enough to stomp is a skill in itself?

ㄴ DriverKimTaejun: If you need a driver service, click this link: https://www....

ㄴ HungryHamster: Wow, he's actually a real driver

[I'll settle this debate once and for all] - CurrentLeagueCoachPro

Lane swap? It's what you do when you get countered

Malphite can handle both Irelia and Sylas well enough, so it's a break-even situation for him

Malphite was probably happy to do it since he just wants to press R and "click"

Sylas would've been grinning thinking about stealing Malphite's ult, but the lane matchup is actually manageable for Malphite

In that situation, it would be a disadvantage for Malphite to stubbornly stay in his lane instead of swapping

Even Bronze players will lane swap after getting countered if they want to win

Obviously the enemy isn't stupid, so Irelia followed Aatrox down

Aatrox is in a good spot these days and could win late game

But that's only if he minimizes early CS loss and gets his items

Without items? Irelia wins 100%

With one core item? Irelia wins even easier

So how did Aatrox manage to solo kill Irelia?

The answer is he interrupted her Blade Surge

As everyone knows, Irelia's Blade Surge cooldown resets when she kills a target with it

She uses that to quickly stack to 4 stacks, increasing her auto attack range and speed to either kite or go all-in

Most people know Irelia usually wins those fights

But Aatrox caught her with the edge of his blade swing, knocking her up and interrupting her

Since Irelia couldn't consume a minion with Q, her cooldown didn't reset

Then she just gets outtraded by raw stats and loses the damage exchange

I thought the first time might have been luck

But he lets her use Blade Surge freely when she's just farming

When she goes for a kill though, he immediately Qs her, chains her, and beats her down

If he was just trying to interrupt Blade Surge occasionally and happened to catch kills when successful, I'd understand

But when he consistently interrupts her Blade Surge and kills her whenever she goes aggressive, it's clearly intentional

If this person hadn't explained about the cheating accusations, I might have thought he was cheating too

I mean, Irelia's Q should be faster than Aatrox's blade swing, so how did he do it?

Anyway, that explains the four solo kills on Irelia

She probably thought the first two kills were flukes and kept fighting

For the fourth kill, she had Immortal Shieldbow so thought she could win

But she lost, so...

As for roaming, that's just basic mid lane fundamentals, so I won't elaborate

But that means he has the fundamentals down

Is Noel a water rocket bubble? No

Is Noel pro League level? - Maybe

What I've seen is someone who goes hard in lane and knows how to snowball from there

I don't know yet if he can create synergy with teammates from zero base to win

Looking at his 33% win rate on tanks, I personally don't think he's that type of player

- DdeuDdaDdeuDdeuDda: What do you think about that person who was looking for a League coaching job recently?

ㄴ CurrentLeagueCoachPro: If they were good, they'd already have interviewed, gotten hired, and be teaching kids by now. There's high demand and supply in this field, so we're short-staffed

ㄴ DdeuDdaDdeuDdeuDda: Wow, are there requirements?

ㄴ CurrentLeagueCoachPro: Former pros, former coaches, current Grandmasters preferred

ㄴ DdeuDdaDdeuDdeuDda: Making money from gaming is still tough, huh

ㄴ 30MinFarm10SecFight: Actually, it's much better now lol Back in the day, even pros were lucky if they could put food on the table

ㄴ ManBecomesMantle: Joker contributed greatly to esports growth, but it was possible because Yohan Lim laid the foundation

ㄴ DdeuDdaDdeuDdeuDda: Ddeu Dda?

- TankBottomQuitGame: If you make money from coaching, why are you here? Aren't you an impersonator?

ㄴ CurrentLeagueCoachPro: I write posts like this so people think I know what I'm talking about and come for coaching

ㄴ CurrentLeagueCoachPro: Many people don't even know this exists

After gaming late into the evening,

I said goodbye to my viewers and browsed through the gaming community.

Except for one game, all my tank games went poorly.

But the rest of my games had pretty good results.

There was surprisingly a lot of discussion about my Aatrox game.

I only had about thirty viewers during the stream, with fewer than ten people actively chatting.

Perhaps many people became interested because of the cheating accusations and my explanation.

I thought it would be enough if the controversy just died down, but becoming this talked about made me uncomfortable.

Of course, as a streamer now, I should be grateful for such attention.

But I'm just scared.

It's definitely more fun playing games while chatting with a few viewers than playing alone.

But what if this drama attracts more people?

Hanging out with friends is fun.

One friend is good, two is good. Even four would be fine.

I can easily talk about interesting books I've read or what songs I like with such friends.

When drinking, I could even share my personal philosophical thoughts.

But even with those friends, I'd get embarrassed when giving presentations in class.

It was the same with project presentations in college.

Before becoming a woman, I'd take on presentations thinking "why would a guy be scared of such things?"

But now just thinking about those numbers makes me feel sick.

I'm already nervous about thirty viewers.

What if it becomes forty, fifty? What if it reaches three digits?

Could I play my normal game without being conscious of them?

Just look at the community.

They're all interested because I'm good at the game.

Even those who criticized me did so because I'm climbing in Master tier.

What if I get intimidated in front of people and it affects my gameplay?

Those admiring gazes would all turn to contempt, and praise would become mockery.

While insults, verbal abuse, and ridicule become familiar when playing League of Champions,

Thinking about people who were friendly suddenly turning on me...

Imagining viewers who admired my good plays and praised me suddenly turning against me...

It makes my breath catch.

I've already experienced that once.

Starting with my father and mother.

When their son who attended a prestigious university and was obedient became nothing but a girl.

If even family can be like that,

How easily would viewers I've never met face-to-face change their attitude?

...It's funny.

If that happens, it would just be going back to how things were.

I've been alone all this time, only receiving abuse.

After hearing these warm words for a short time, I'm afraid to go back.

Like how I didn't think much when I only ate ramen, but after trying chicken and pizza, I don't want to go back.

After feeling people's warmth once, I don't want to return to the cold shadows.

What a fickle heart.

...Hating myself for these terrible thoughts,

I quietly brought my hands to my throat.

"Kuk, kuk..."

Gripping my neck tightly with both hands.

I apply pressure with my fingers until no other thoughts enter my mind.

Only after my head goes completely blank, when I think I might die like this,

My mind becomes peaceful.

Indeed, whether angry or depressed,

When my mind is troubled, resetting like this seems to help.

"Haa, haa..."

As I lay on the bed catching my breath,

I somehow noticed the neighbor sister's bare legs.

...Did she see?

While my heart sank at the thought of my secret being discovered,

I secretly wondered what kind of concern she would show.

Does that make me too attention-seeking?

But the neighbor sister just sat beside me and spoke in a calm voice.

"You seem upset. Would taking a shower help you feel better?"

The neighbor sister didn't ask about what just happened.

That was slightly disappointing but also relieving.

Yes, this is why I like her.

She maintains an appropriate distance while offering advice.

"Can I do it tomorrow? I showered this morning."

"You can shower morning and evening, you know."

"I didn't sweat. I don't smell."

"It'll help change your mood."

"...I'll go then."

"Ah, I'm leaving."

"Were you going to sleep?"

"I came to say goodnight."

"...Goodnight."

"Yeah, goodnight."

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