When I think about it, it seems like it was always like that.
The fact is that [I was too stubborn about myself and couldn't find my way].
We live just because we were born.
Without dreams or hopes, just watching the water flow naturally and the snow fall from the sky
“Oh, it’s snowing.”
While spouting nonsense like that.
Without even looking into the reason why snow is formed and falls from the sky, we just conclude that it falls because it falls.
I realized that I, too, was living a life that flowed like that.
Since when?
“Well… I don’t know.”
He just said he didn't know, but in reality he knew better than anyone else.
Someone picked up my life, which was just like a pebble that fell to the ground.
Someone picked me up and led me forward.
[How much?]
To the point of giving up everything about yourself
It's not an easy choice. Giving up everything you have and choosing to lead me is incredibly reckless and foolish.
What if I had let go without holding your hand? What would have happened then?
“When I think back on it… how could I have done something so reckless and… stupid… I’m going to have to give you a really harsh word.”
No, really, if you think about it again, wasn't he not stupid, but rather had some kind of mental problem?
“It’s always been like that… always!”
Rather, I started to get angry.
Even though I couldn't avoid the countless sharp tentacles flying towards me, I kept getting stabbed and stabbed repeatedly.
My head heats up at the thought of Carnelian doing such a stupid thing.
“Why do you do such stupid things… and why do you always smile!”
I was so angry at such a stupid thing that I didn't even have time to feel the pain.
I… don’t want to be a useless person anymore.
I, too, have a goal in life, and as I live my life step by step, I become someone’s goal and lead them from the front…
“So please, I beg you… Get out of my sight!!”
I figured out who did this to Emily's body, and now I feel like I'm on the right track.
Keep… bothering me.
As the sharp tentacles continue to wound me and make me bleed, the tentacles grow and absorb my blood.
My wounds are bleeding more and more, and it's hard to walk step by step
“I’ve already died once… Do you really think I should be afraid again??”
It's just a bluff
Because if you die here, everything is over.
But… somehow, I felt like I wouldn’t die easily now, and that I could achieve something too.
***
I wanted to stand side by side as one person.
Not a life led by someone else… but a life walking side by side as equals.
I live each day for someone, and now I just want to be at the same height.
It's so shabby compared to the effort I put in, but still...
“I will not be bound by your chains any longer.”
I didn't really deny the existence of the witch who brought me to this point.
Because of that person, I was able to somehow get through my childhood.
But that's it.
After that, it interfered with everything I did, and now I see it alive and in such a pitiful state… I’m sick and tired of not dying.
It was so obvious that he was still trying to cut off my limbs without killing me, as if he were still the shackles that bound me.
Those old memories of playing with me like a toy.
So that those terrible pasts don't drag me down again
“It’s goodbye now.”
It's a very small and weak dagger, though.
To finish off the witch who is parasitizing inside Emily's body and trying to survive.
As the blade slowly began to enter his body, he began to thrash in extreme pain.
【Kee ...
The scream was terrifying and ear-piercing, but I pushed in, little by little.
Insert the dagger so deep that the blade is no longer visible.
The movements of the tentacles that were running wild and destroying the interior of the mad office began to decrease, and they withered and withered away, writing something on the wall.
Only then did Emily's face begin to come into view.
“It’s all over….”
I haven't achieved anything great, just... at the level of stabbing with a knife.
I think this is the end.
I finally feel like I've broken free of the chains that still plague me.
So, I'm a bit... sleepy.
The bleeding still won't stop.
The blood that flowed and flowed... felt like it was cooling down...
“Ms. Emily… I’m sorry.”
You finally woke me up, but I think I'm going to fall asleep again.
Ah… This won’t do… … .
There are many things I want to do….
“My eyes are closed……”
My eyelids feel weak.
As my eyelids gradually close, the cold disappears and I feel warmer, as if someone is calling me.
"eww………."
Why, it is unknown whether the witch is alive.
And I don't know why it parasitized Emily's body and took on such a monstrous form, and why we were locked in that mental world.
After ending with a lot of questions
My eyes are gradually closing.
***
“………….”
[Are you awake now?]
“………….”
I hear a familiar voice.
[Hey, you're not dead yet, so wake up and wake up.]
"……yes??"
[Come on, I'm out of time.]
"ah………."
Oh, right. I remember.
I had forgotten that there was someone living inside my body.
That could only come out at certain times… is that correct?
"uh……."
It was none other than the sound that greeted me with a scream that woke me up.
It was warm sunlight.
It was so warm, yet… a cold wind was blowing in… … .
[They say this is the only decent house around here, but it's still cool enough that I won't die.]
"haha……."
I have so much to say, but I can't open my mouth right now.
[Okay, don't say anything. If you just talk nonsense to the air, you'll look like a crazy kid.]
“……….”
I always feel this way, but I don't like the fact that he's a bit rough with his words and actions, but the problem is that he never says anything wrong.
[It's time. Just go to sleep.]
And after saying what he wanted to say, he disappeared right before my eyes.
“………….”
It became quiet.
As it became quiet, I turned my head and looked around for a moment.
The window that lets in sunlight seemed to have been brought in from somewhere of an inappropriate size and fitted in as best as possible.
The ceiling and floor were frozen with snow stuck to the cracks, perhaps because they had been left out for a long time in this cold weather.
In this small room… there are traces of firewood being placed in a large pot like the one seen in the palace and burned.
“……….”
and
Bandages covered in blood
I see bottles of medicine, medicines, and a grinder for crushing herbs that I have never seen before.
"ha……."
I'm in a difficult situation because I can't even speak properly and I can't call anyone.
I think it won't come back if I just go back to sleep like this
-thud!
Just as I was about to fall asleep again, I heard a loud thud, followed by the sound of someone running quickly.
If you are nervous about not being startled by a voice that seems like it might be noisy… … .
“Rioooo!!!”
Oh my, your voice is really loud.
Maybe it's because I can't cover my ears with my hands, but the voice is so loud that it makes my brain ring, and I wonder where it came from and what it's doing.
Where did the neat and beautiful clothes I had worn go? I was wearing animal skins that looked like they had been picked up from the floor.
“Rio!! De, you finally came to your senses?!! Finally!! Are you okay? Does anything hurt? Can you move your arms? Your legs? Your head? Your body? How is it??”
I'm so glad to see you safe. By the way, are you okay, Your Majesty? Actually, I'd like to ask you something in return. Are you hurt?
I want to say that, but.
“What....... I... want to... go... to... get hurt....”
In a voice that wasn't coming out properly, words came out in a completely different form than what I had thought they would say, and the princess looked quite shocked at those words.
“You’re scared? So scared that you want to fly away? Because you’re hurt??”
Carnelian, who realized a little too late that I couldn't give a proper answer because my mouth was dry, melted a snowball outside and carefully moistened the corner of my mouth with water.
And Carnelian didn't bother to tell what had happened to him.
I also couldn't easily bring up the story of Miss Emily, who was found dead in a horrific state in the palace office...
It just continued as a one-sided conversation.
“Rio, are you feeling well? Are you in pain or anything?”
“Please don’t get sick… I beg you earnestly.”
“It was the worst… Everything I saw back then was the worst.”
And he acted like he was worried about me, while looking okay in his own way.
As if I had a bad dream